A Recap

Here we are, some final moments before the start of a new year cycle. There’s fireworks up in the night sky mostly and the euphoric feeling of expectant newness as well. This time, you’re actually part of those feeling it. When asked to recount the memories; the year before this one, was a blur but you remember it as an endless replaying nightmare. And this one started out almost as depressing. There were days you’d mutter “damn” as you opened your eyes from sleep and eagerly count the hours of the day because you wanted to go back to sleep. For a large part of your time, you lived like a sloth, spitefully existing through life. There weren’t best days but you had a voice that persistently shouted “fight” and so you did.

In search of escape, you found yourself in certain situations and almost lost your life. In that moment where your mind was convincing the rest of you it was time to go, that mental picture of your loved ones crying over kept creeping in and you kept fighting. Drenched in gallons of water and perhaps, your tears- all in that same moment, you learnt the value of great friendship. The one who stuck out in the moment, holding your hands , lending a voice for your mind to follow out that doom. Going to sleep in that phase became a fear but you pushed with help from family and friends. You learnt your lesson.

You started to push through- you appreciated the experience and embraced the failures. At least the voice that shouts “fight” simmered ( you’re not Eren Yaeger, rest). Now, there’s an ease of expression within you and you’re learning more about you- this time, with the burning desire to create and love.

Here we are, at the beginning of what seems to be glaringly hopeful.

No pressure still.